mandag 7. januar 2013

For to år siden

I dag er det to år siden i dag jeg gikk nedover bakkene mot Carl Berner. Retning T-banen. Jeg hadde vært på barselbesøk hos en venninne. Hun som oppdaget at hun var gravid samtidig som meg. Som egentlig hadde termin akkurat en uke før oss. Men som bar på en utålmodig jente som kom 10 dager før tiden. Selv var jeg fire dager på overtid. Passelig klar. Jeg hadde sittet og sett på det lille mennesket. Sett hvordan hun sparket. Fektet. Gråt. Så vakker. Så perfekt. Samtidig som jeg kjente at noen sparket inni meg. Flyttet på seg. Og jeg prøvde å forstå at det lå et like ferdig menneske der inne. Helt likt som hun som lå foran meg.

Men nå var jeg altså på vei hjem. Det var fredag og ettermiddag, og jeg skulle egentlig gå hele veien. Men kjente at kroppen var for tung. For trett, etter null søvn natten før. Så jeg gikk mot banen. Fremme på perrongen ringte jeg mannen som var på jobb, forsikret om at ingen ting hadde skjedd. Fortalte at kroppen var ekstra tung i dag. Spurte om han kunne handle. - Sov litt, sa han.

Og det gjorde jeg. Sov. Frem til jeg ble vekket av mannen som kom fra trening. -Sover du enda, lo han. Og ba meg om å sove litt til, han skulle lage middag. -Vekker deg da. Og det gjorde han. Med middag og lys og  favorittmusikk. Vi visste begge at dette var siste fredagen som oss. Bare oss. To. Og vi skålte for det. Og for det som skulle komme. Det ukjente.Og der, mens vi skålte, kjente jeg det. Det første, spede, tegnet. Det neste kom ikke før lenge etterpå. Først etter at vi hadde lagt oss, og sovnet, ble tegnene sikre. Og sterke. Hun var på vei. Til oss.

Heldigvis visste vi ikke da at det skulle ta enda et døgn før vi fikk møte henne. Eller at ferden ut skulle bli i overkant tøff for henne. At hun ikke skulle komme rett til oss. Heldigvis visste vi ingen ting om det. For det gikk jo helt bra. Det vet vi nå.



22 kommentarer:

Anonym sa...

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Hilsen Turid

Åshild sa...

Du skriver poesi!

nadja sa...

<3.

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nadja sa...

<3.

Du, du MÅ bare skrive. Så ofte du kan. Jeg liker språket ditt så godt.

Camilla sa...

Så vakkert du skriver :)

Pia sa...

Åh, det er spesielt det der med fødsel, og tida rett før (og rett etter...) Rundt ungenes bursdager blir man litt ekstra sentimental:)

Støvkorn sa...

Ah, minner... alltid rart og litt sårt og tenke tilbake. Du skriver godt!

Livet, døden, kjærligheten og bamsemums sa...

Hei! Oppdaga bloggen din idag, så fint du skriv! Og så fint at den er uten bilder, då lagar eg bilda sjøl! Kirsti, som kjem innom for å lese meir ein annan dag.

Unknown sa...

HVORDAN FÅ DIN EX BACK WITH YOU NOW !!!
Jeg har noe å dele med deg! Det er en stor glede i mitt hjerte som jeg vil dele med alle. Mitt navn er Gunn Jenssen Faith. Jeg hadde en misforståelse med min elsker flere måneder siden; som førte oss til å bryte opp og han ville aldri høre stemmen min igjen. Men som tiden gikk, anbefalte en god venn av meg DR.PEPOKO som kunne hjelpe meg med Love Spell for å få mannen min tilbake. Først trodde jeg ideen om en kjærlighetsspell var rar, men var villig til å prøve det fordi jeg virkelig elsker kjæresten min. For første gang var jeg redd for å kontakte DR.PEPOKO fordi jeg ikke var sikker på om det de gjorde var mot min religion. Men min venn forsikret meg om at de bare bruker stave som er trygt og ikke har noen bivirkninger. Jeg følte meg litt bedre og bestemte meg for å kontakte DR.PEPOKO på posten hans (pepokolovespell@gmail.com). Jeg kontaktet ham via e-posten og forklarte alt for ham. Han sa at jeg ikke burde bekymre meg, at min elskede kommer tilbake til meg på kneet og ber om tilgivelse. Jeg kjøpte et element som han fortalte meg å kjøpe for utarbeidelsen av stavningen og forsikret meg om at min elskede kommer til meg innen 48 timer i anger. Min største glede er nå at han faktisk kom tilbake til meg og falt på kneet og ba om tilgivelse. Vi kom tilbake sammen og vårt forhold har vært bedre denne gangen. Jeg må gi DR.PEPOKO all æren for å hjelpe oss med å komme tilbake til et bedre sted enn hvor vi begynte. Den nye funnet kjærligheten som kjæresten min har for meg, er utrolig, og jeg kan ikke vente på å se hva fremtiden har for oss. Har du noe problem med din kjære? Vel bekymre deg ikke mer fordi DR.PEPOKO kan gi deg en stave for å få ham eller henne tilbake. Med hjelp av en stave som han hjalp meg. Kontakt DR.PEPOKO via e-post: pepokolovespell@gmail.com eller besøk hennes hjemmeside: www.pepokolovespelltemple.blogspot.com

Her er mine detaljer også hvis du ønsker å kontakte meg personlig ::: gunnjenssen.faith@gmail.com

WILSON sa...







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ODUCKAYAMUD sa...



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RUFFUS sa...




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AMBER sa...




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FLORA sa...



HOW I GET MY HERPES CURED WITHIN 8 DAYS

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TRACY sa...



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ROSE sa...





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LOVE SPELL sa...




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GREBSON sa...

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Vlasta Parkanová sa...

Den som leser dette vitnesbyrdet i dag, skulle feire med meg og min familie, fordi det hele startet som en vits for noen mennesker og andre sa at det var umulig. Jeg heter Martin Heltveit og er fra oslo, men jeg flytter til Tromsø med kona. Jeg er lykkelig gift med to barn og en vakker kone. Noe forferdelig skjedde med familien min, jeg mistet jobben min og kona forlot huset mitt fordi jeg ikke kunne ta godt vare på meg selv og familien. henne og mine barn på det bestemte tidspunktet. Jeg klarte i ni år, ingen kone å forsørge meg for å ta godt vare på barna. Jeg prøver å sende en testmelding til min kone, men hun hindrer meg i å snakke med henne. Jeg prøver å snakke med venninnen hennes og hennes familie, men jeg vet fortsatt at noen kan hjelpe meg, og jeg har sendt forespørselen senere til så mange selskaper, men fremdeles ikke ring meg før en trofast dag kommer som jeg aldri vil glemme i livet mitt . Da jeg møtte en gammel venn av meg, som jeg forklarte alle vanskene mine med, og han fortalte meg om en flott mann som hjalp ham med å få en god jobb i Coca cola-selskapet, og han fortalte at det var en sjarm-sjarm, men jeg er en person som aldri tror på stave, men jeg bestemte meg for å prøve det, og jeg kontaktet ham via doctorosagiede75@gmail.com. Han instruerte meg og viste meg hva jeg skulle gjøre i løpet av disse tre dagene jeg startet trolldommen. Jeg fulgte alle instruksjonene og gjorde det han ba meg om å gjøre det bra. Drosagiede sørget for at alt gikk bra og at min kone skulle se meg igjen etter det fantastiske arbeidet Drosagiede. Min kone ringer meg med et ukjent nummer og ba om unnskyldning, og hun fortalte meg at hun virkelig savner meg og barna våre og kona kommer hjem. Og etter to dager et firma som jeg har sendt takkebrevet mitt ringt, nå er jeg den eksemplariske bedriftslederen her i USA. Jeg anbefaler at hvis du har noen problemer som å få tilbake eksen din eller å kurere deg for sykdommer som HIV og kreft, kan du sende en melding til denne e-postadressen: doctorosagiede75@gmail.com eller whatsapp +2349014523836 og du vil få det beste resultatet. Ta ting for gitt, og det vil bli tatt bort fra deg. Jeg ønsker deg det beste.

Mance Vudic sa...

Jeg vil takke Chubygreat for din hjelp. Min kone forlot meg for noen måneder tilbake, og jeg trengte henne i mitt liv fordi jeg elsker henne så mye. Jeg tok kontakt med chubygreat da jeg leste om ham på Google, hvordan han returnerer kjærligheten. Han ga meg forsikring og sa til meg at han vil trenge ting som jeg leverte, og i løpet av de neste to dagene etter å ha kastet trylleformelen, kom kona tilbake til meg. Takk chubygreat. Du kan kontakte ham med følgende detaljer. Chubygreat@gmail.com eller Whatsapp 2348165965904

Mance Vudic sa...

Jeg vil takke Chubygreat for din hjelp. Min kone forlot meg for noen måneder tilbake, og jeg trengte henne i mitt liv fordi jeg elsker henne så mye. Jeg tok kontakt med chubygreat da jeg leste om ham på Google, hvordan han returnerer kjærligheten. Han ga meg forsikring og sa til meg at han vil trenge ting som jeg leverte, og i løpet av de neste to dagene etter å ha kastet trylleformelen, kom kona tilbake til meg. Takk chubygreat. Du kan kontakte ham med følgende detaljer. Chubygreat@gmail.com eller Whatsapp 2348165965904

Selena Gomez sa...

Jeg vil virkelig også dele historien min med dere her, jeg tror det vil hjelpe noen av oss her også.

Jeg er veldig glad i dag og takknemlig til Dr. Balogun for at han gjenforenet meg med min tidligere mann. Alt håp om å få mannen min tilbake gikk tapt fordi mannen min forlot meg til en annen kvinne i 7 måneder, før jeg kontaktet dr. Balogun scott, som brukte sin kraftige trylleformular for å bringe ham tilbake til meg innen 24 timer etter å ha kontaktet ham via denne e-posten. Du kan også WhatsApp-nummer +33635896938 for å få hjelp. balogundr533@gmail.com